teaching moment

hubby & i were excited recently when he got a notebook pc as a bday gift. our son shared in our excitement. he tried to hug the laptop and said "i'm so happy we have a laptop". i told him "even if we don't have a laptop we can still be happy, baby". he retorted, "yes mom because i still have many things. i have the other computer, my toys" and he continued to mumble other things. i felt that was an opportune time to teach him something so i quickly added: "even if we dont have those things Gab we still can be happy. see, you have the sun, the mountains, the birds. they make you happy, right? you have mommy & daddy" and he nodded in agreement. "and most of all Jesus is in you. he is in your heart". i didnt care at that time if he got something and understood what i was saying. i sensed i just needed to say that to him. and i was surprised with his answer. "yes mom, when i die Jesus will be in my heart". i didnt say any word anymore. we both fell silent while i hugged him. i know somehow, something hit him even in his tender age.

topping my bucket list

for the second time since my son entered nursery school, i accompanied him to his class today. he has been asking me for days and i thought i could just take time off from work for half a day. well, even just for a few hours i spend with him, i saw my son's face brightened up. being with him was enough to lift my spirit too...

it was also a "me" time. i had the chance to grab the book i have been reading and browsed it while waiting for my son's class to end.

this is something that's become a luxury for me - uninterrupted reading :)

one of Gab's favorites is going to new places for a snack. well, he had it this morning & was glad to have his "date" with mommy.

obviously, being a SAHM still tops my bucket list... sigh :(

remembering our angels

i almost choked on my brother's Facebook shoutout. it reads:

"God Has made your journey into this world so short.You almost came fully existent but then you left too soon.Though your mother's womb didn't hold you much longer,we hold you forever in our hearts.Farewell Lil one..Have a safe journey back home,...to the hands of your CREATOR."

memories of my three miscarriages came back when i read this. like my brother and his wife, my heart ached when i remembered those times when I & hubby realized we could never hold those unborn babies in our lifetime. the pains came back. but now i am reconciled to the fact that even if we could never have them, but we always hold them close in our hearts.

those four years

four years ago today, hubby & I were both excited and nervous at the prospect of becoming Dad & Mom to our son. while we were expecting his birth, my mind can't focused - i didnt know what to do (even at my rather advance age) and what to expect. gosh, i can imagine if i was the one actually giving birth. though i was a bit afraid, but i remember the glorious experience of anticipation. my son's birth date falls on the Feast of Transfiguration. and i took it as God's way of allowing me to experience some sort of transfiguration - if i may compare it to that.

like all mothers, raising up my son is both a happy and bumpy ride. but each day of being with him brings myriad of experiences & lessons for me that i can't trade for anything. and i look forward to the years ahead - his teen age years, puberty, adulthood...

today, i reaffim myself that it was God's design that our son becomes a part of us. and i thank God for allowing me to experience the miracle of adoption.

Happy birthday Gab. remember, Dad and Mom love you very much.

nature made more beautiful

as a child, i have always adored the wide ground in this part of my home place. this is where many of my fond memories as a child took place. now that i'm an adult, passing by the area lined with trees and breathing the cool morning air not only bring deja vu but made me more appreciate God's creation.

Recently, an interesting sight caught my attention as hubby & i pass the capitol ground (as the locals call it) going to work. Something that made the scenic view more beautiful -

notice these two ladies helping a boy walk. obviously the teener is differently abled. and i come to admire the patience of the two women accompanying the boy make rounds in the capitol ground for exercise daily. whether these two women are devoted family members or paid helpers does not matter to me because i can see their dedication and sacrifice. i can't help but breathe in the love pervading in the air. for isnt this the perfect picture of love in action?